Well today is a very exciting and fun day... but also one where I'm feeling really gutted! You see, I work with some young people (school years 7-9) and as it's the end of term this is the last time I'll be seeing the year 9's (in an official capacity). I absolutely love working with these guys, we have about 85-100 of them on a Friday night and it's honestly the best night of my week, they're amazing!
But, the current year 9's have a special place in my heart, they always have done even when they were younger. They're just an amazing bunch of kids and it's been truly amazing and inspirational watching them on their personal journeys with God. These aren't churched kids so watching them as the years have gone on come to grasp in their own way what it means to have a relationship with God has been awe inspiring.
We took 74 young people away for a weekend on the Isle of Wight back in April and to see them one by one respond in their own unique way to God was stunning and deeply moving to see how God really does answer prayer! I got some of the girls to illustrate with a piece of paper what the weekend had meant for them, and then explain it, here's just one of them:
I ripped a big hole in the centre to symbolise something that was missing in me before and that I hadn't discovered yet. The paper I am writing on symbolises what I have now and the hole I have filled. I ripped some off the top to show I have gotten rid of some of my views from before.
Oh it makes me excited just to think about it again. And another amazing thing about this weekend was that is was a 'penny-dropping' experience for me as well. I looked at these guys one evening and thought, goodness knows how it feels to be a parent, I love these guys so much and they're not my children, imagine that you can feel love stronger than this... and then God whispered to me, yeah and I love you even more than that! Crazy!
Then I thought to myself, they haven't got a clue how much I love them though, yeah they know I'm rather fond of them, but they have no clue about how deep my love for them is, the fact that I would do anything for them... and then it clicked again, this is still how God feels about me, about us. He love us so so so much, and he's crying out to show us, but we have no clue, no clue whatsoever.
I guess this is my biggest prayer for this wonderful amazing group of young people, that whatever their life brings, and I hope it is all things wonderful and great, but whatever does happen, that they would know more than anything
how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that they may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God
So I'm excited because I get to dress up as a pirate for the end of term party tonight. But I'm also deeply sad about saying good bye, and it's not a sadness like I feel when the sun isn't shining, or when there's no mozzarella at the sandwich shop, or even when I miss home. It's a kind of sadness that really guts me, I guess this is how God feels sometimes too....
It was raining, now it's not!