12th July

Well hello there...

I think I'd like to share some lovely things about God with you that warmed my heart yeaterday when I was feeling crappy... But I will edit it out of text speech, frankly because it's quite confusing! You see, the thing is, I sometimes feel upset, not because I want to be married, in fact I'm really quite happy just being me, I'm too busy and too scared for it to be any other way right now... But in typical irrational human (maybe read as girly) style I find it difficult that there isn't someone there who wants to marry me.

It hurts that I'm never the one who is chosen... even if I don't really want them anyway. This is what a very wise, wonderful and lovely person pointed out to me:

My darling beautiful girl. I won't say the obvious 'you have been chosen by God'...oops just did! Honey I know it's poo... especially when there is usually a lack of decent males anyway. I will pray of course, and I'm sorry you're sad. When that right man comes on the scene I think you'll know, and you'll be glad you didn't get chosen before.

And it's so true... I was chosen before the world began, to be Holy and blameless in His sight, a dearly loved child of the Creator God. I was formed intricately to be the person I am. And at that same time God knew exactly who I would meet in my life... and yes, when I meet the person who chooses me I will know that God has already chosen them for me, and, more to the point, I'll be glad I didn't waste time letting myself be chosen by anyone else.

Remember... You have already been chosen, for the MOST important role.

It was sunny yesterday, I went to the beach... it's not today.